Falling Asleep

Hey Gang:  

Is it just me, or are we all falling asleep around 2pm??? I sometimes wonder if I'm the only one that can't stay awake between the hours of 2pm & 5pm.... It's really bad... I was thinking that maybe it's because of all the stuff that I am juggling on my plate.. But this is ridiculous!!! I find myself falling asleep as I drive.... Or my eyes closing as I'm driving... What can be done??? Is this some sort of ailment??? Or just sleep deprivation??? I wonder how many of us are going through this at the same time??? It's a horrible feeling.. I just want to take a nap.. I can't just do those so called "power naps"... I need about 2 hours... LMAO.. On the days that I don't have school I try to be in bed by 9pm.. (yes, I know it's early) but my wake up is at 5am... Which thinking about it, it's for the birds.. I dislike getting up so early.. But, it has to be done...

I know that people think that I'm nuts, but I need more sleep.. Is that even possible??? My main concern right now, is what can I do to stay awake??? Some of my friends told me to drink coffee, or red bull.. hahahah.. They don't do a thing.. I sleep even better when I take them... So, I guess that my tolerance level to caffeine has become so great that nothing keeps me up... I hope that some of you are in my same boat and that you can help me out with ideas on how to stay awake..  I wonder if I should try the 5 hour energy drink??

So if like me you are falling asleep from 2pm-5pm, let me know.. Maybe we can get some kind of ideas on how to stay awake...  

Have a great weekend out there.... :)

The Nitty Gritty

It's time to get down to the "nitty gritty"... I was thinking about this today and I'm going to blog about it... The Nitty Gritty..

 How difficult is it to get over our fears??? Why do we always have to be the strong one all the time?? How bad do we really feel when our confidence levels drop??? Is it easier to give up or not try so that we don't fail??? All of us go through these thoughts and many more all the time.. It's time to take off our masks and stop hiding.. Face our "nitty gritty" once and for all..

 In my life, especially now approaching week 3 of my new journey, I am feeling a little low in the confidence area.. I know that I have come this far and there is much more to go and I can't keep feeling scared about stuff that is hard for me to learn.. We all go through that... One way or another.. For me it's so frustrating to sit in class and not be able to understand how to figure a problem out.. the frustration turns into anger and you feel that you aren't good enough.. Then you start having doubts in yourself and you loose your confidence.. I know how all of that feels... I am going through it right now... I'm scared of failing, I have so much riding on this.. I can't see myself sacrificing so much to in the end fail.. After my class last night my sense of confidence went down the drain.. I guess because my (math) skills in problem solving has never been my strong suit.. I know that I need to reposition my thinking and think positive.. It's just really hard...

I know that I'm not alone in this.. Many of you out there are not facing your "nitty gritty"... You need to!!! This is the only way that your are going to see what you are made off... It's hard, and trust me you feel all alone in this journey.. The only consolation is that there are others out there just like you and me that are going through the same thing.. They just don't want to admit it.. So, they wear the mask... Facing our fears is not an easy task.. I wish that life were a lot easier than what it actually is..

Take a moment and see what's your Nitty Gritty?? Figure out if you are hiding behind something in order not to have to deal with stuff.. I can't wait to hear any stories that you guys have...

9/11

Today 9/11/12 is a day that will never be forgotten..  11 years ago on 9/11/01 our lives changed completely.. We have become a country that is stronger today because of what happened yesterday.. Today, we will see tributes to all those that gave their lives and that helped others.. Those selfless people that went into the burning buldings to try and help those in need.. Those people that were stranded on the higher floors stuck with nowhere to go and they were just there trying to keep each other strong... One can never ever even imgaine what they went through or what they said to each other... I wouldn't want to have that kind of heaviness of not knowing what my loved one was going thru.. My prayers have always been with the loved ones in NY, DC & PA... We will never be the same, but we have become stronger than ever before. I hope that we all could take a moment and remember this day for the rest of our lives.. My life has changed... I take the time to let others in my life know how much they mean to me..

Cell Phone Drama

So, most of your have had some sort of cell phone dilemma or drama as I like to call it... Mine is one for the books.... My cell as most of you know was in a lil accident... So, (since i have one of those un-fixable screens) & no I didn't purchase the insurance on it... I decided to buy a refurbished one via Ebay... First time ordering and I am happy that I could actually afford a phone.. Since we all know that trying to get a cell phone now a days is like making a car payment... Especially, if you aren't anywhere close to your upgrade date... So, I ordered a different kind of DROID bc I could afford it... So, after practically two weeks without a phone it comes in the mail... YIPPY!!! totally excited.. I can't wait to start it up... Well, I followed all my instructions through my cell carrier and then after it transfers all your info it tells you to power your phone up so that you can finish the programming... I went to do that and my phone wouldn't turn on.. Hmmm I wondered why?? So, I plugged it into the charger that it came with and yay it started... Love that "DROID Sound" that it makes...lol... But wait.. it's off again.. What the heck!!! So, i took out the battery and placed it back in and plugged it in again.. NOTHING!!!! what... all my info is in this phone and I can't work it....DAMMM...

 I drove to my cell companies store and asked the clerk if he could help me... So, he was nice enough to try and put another battery in it (which I paid for) and abracadabra it worked.. Until i got into the car... It's off again.... Off I go back into the store and the clerk tells me "it could be the connection port"... Oh NO!! what the heck is that???? Well, it's what registers the battery and charges up the phone... Great so now what.. all my info is in this new phone and its not working!!! So, the clerk advises me to send it back to the seller and ask for a refund... Here we go another who knows how many weeks without a phone... Aggrrrr... I get home, and try to change my phone info again, but I'm worried that some other info is still in this new phone... Just my luck.. I also email the seller and I'm waiting to hear back from them... I want a phone.. One that works, and that I can use... Is this too hard to ask???? Geez... I'm hoping that come Monday morning I can get some sort of resolution on this... Being without a phone is no fun....

I guess I wonder, if ordering from Ebay or Amazon is bad??? I've never had issues with products (even though my orders are all books), but I guess that there is always a first time... Well, to all of you out there that have had something similar happen.. I totally feel your pain right now...

R U READY 4 SOME FOOTBALL

So, a lot of you that know me, know that I'm all about "football"... Yes I know that the season starts tonight and we have the Cowboys v Giants... That will be a great opening game... But, I must admit I can't wait til Sunday when my team plays.. All of you that know me know that Green Bay Packers have always been my team... So I am hoping that they deliver a great game against the SF49's.... I will definitely be watching that game.. WITH NO INTERRUPTIONS!!!

 I do miss the opening anthem that they used to play on ABC "Are you ready for some football"...(sang by Hank Williams) That song, definitely made the evening.. Accompanied by the Monday Night Football Theme... This year will be a great year in football, as it is every year... Hopefully, my team will make it all the way to the end.. and not choke... I can't wait to see how the Jets do this year with Teabow and Sanchez... So with that said.... Let the GAMES BEGIN... Can't wait to see how the rest of the season unravels...

ARE U READY!!!!!! CUZ I AM.......

New Journey

If being a single mom isn't hard enough, I have taken upon more responsibility... I decided to go back to school... Yes, I know what everyone is going to say.... "Are you crazy"!!! Maybe.... I know that I already have enough diplomas that adorn the walls, I just wanted one more.... lol... I have to admit that my 17 hour days 3 days a week is really taking a toll on me... It's incredible how much you miss your bed, your quiet time, your gym time and all the other stuff that I used to do... You can't imagine how much I'm beginning to hate the 5am wake up calls.... But in the end, I know that once I pass my "state exam" I will be able to give my kids and myself the life that I have always wanted... That's if I make it!!!!!

New Journey's are exciting and at the same time confusing and scary... Sometimes, you wonder if you still have it in you to keep on going pass 8pm... lol.. I know that I'm a walking zombie 2 days out of the week and on the weekend, I'm dying for a nap...lol... Why do I have to always be the overachiever????  Why do I always want more??? Why can't I just stay plain me??? Well, I guess that GOD instilled in me the microchip of keep on moving forward... As one of my family members used to say, "you can't be stuck in a deserted island, because you will be rearranging the coconut trees".. It's true.. I can't stay still or just do nothing for long periods of time..

My professor told us that for the next couple of months, I will have no social life!!! He wasn't kidding.. This man wants me to read for chapters over the weekends... I'm so tired, that I start and I end up falling asleep on my books... That is not good... I need to make more of an effort to stay awake.. Hopefully, I can muster up the strength...

Because of this new journey, I will have a little less time to write the blog.. Don't worry, I will sneak sometime to do them... I enjoy writing them, and seeing the comments that some of you leave... I will let you all know how it's going and when I pass my state exam..... We shall all celebrate....